The Tarot class last night was lovely - everyone is so kind and easy going. It's truly wonderful. I feel bad because I started panicking the last half hour about leaving - worried about Mr. Chicoryflower and the kids. Leaving the nest in the evenings is a new thing for both of us. I'm sure we'll get used to it, though. : )

He may be going to a drumming circle tonight, so turnabout is fairplay. I find we're more joyous with each other when we have these breaks from home life, family, and responsibility.

Ahhhh.

Well, I did a reading for myself, and the question was certainly centered around joining the coven, though others projected that I might be thinking about my art. Possibly, art and spirituality are so deeply entertwined. Art is a secondary expression of the primary experience, though. It ought to be that way, certainly. This is why the word "artist" as a descriptor of self always gets stuck in my throat. ...something else to work on.

So, the reading was deeply reassuring, and I find that despite years of being into runes, the tarot is quite easy to read. It helps to have very good teachers, and this I have - good on so many levels.

I'm officially a dedicant, and this I can say openly, but according to the vows, really nothing else.

The reading gave me the reassurance, surprisingly, that I needed that I'm ready to accept this challenge. My outcome card was the Hierophant, and all of my past cards were Pages (awakenings), my fear was truly accurate - that it's too soon to celebrate, but the truth is, it's never to soon to celebrate. I know what I am and where I'm headed and my life is a celebration. I will relax and "let" more happen without worry. One card that appeared negative to me, as defined by another in the group, didn't mean anything negative at all, it meant that I don't need to practice and be a student as much as I think I do.

Now my work is both in learning the ropes, words, habits, but I have set a greater task for myself, to begin to understand my own shadow-self. I know what my flaws are, very well. I'm so glad I have those archetype cards, because it is helping me identify the darker places in my own heart and mind, allowing me to find the road blocks in my heart and I'm beginning to let sunshine into those places and admit imperfection to myself on the deepest level. I think this is probably a task I will revisit over and over again as I work through my elevations, which I do intend to do. 

I think I've rambled enough, so I'll just stop right there. : )

I hope everyone is having a beautiful and blessed weekend. I'll echo Jody's sentiment that I hope everyone is having a randy one!